Saturday, September 9

i left the house having one of those fat-days, but today actually turned out quite .. nice.
today was not bad a day.
only downside was being unable to take a nap, and my books still beckon from the table - that and much more. fine, make that downside(s).

i got the clinic assistant job, and 1st 2 hours of training was this afternoon.
there's alot of administrative mumbojumbo swimming around the grey matter @ the mo, but i guess it'll all settle once it comes with routine. i'm quite psyched about what i'll learn (hopefully), but not so psyched at the idea of "work". i'm a bundle of inconsistencies, i know. the pay's nothing, unfortunately, but the point was to gain relevant experience in the field. actually, it's been a thought playing in my head, so when i saw that they were hiring, i jumped at it immediately (in retrospect, probably without thinking). but it does seem like it's God's idea too, so i'll let you know how that goes. i'll know it is if i learn heaps.

and then there was sam's commissioning parade.
it was nice windy, cloudy, not-so-humid weather over @ safti. i had a nice time talking to arr-mily. watching the parade was nice too, considering the weather was okay, it started punctually, it didn't feel draggy, and of course it was nice that sam was in it & a happy day for him too.

but frankly, 2 things struck me from my conversation with arrm.

1) i was amazed at how just after 4 lectures of sociology, it has shone light on certain issues in a very unconscious way. like, concepts would suddenly just crystallize when i realize certain things. it's hard to explain, but its the same effect as when i did philosophy - for the lack of a better word, enlightening.
for eg, when wen was talking about her friend keeping mum despite being mistreated, it brought to mind about how sociologists established that people tend to obey authority despite not being obliged to. and also when i was laughing at the OCS songs, i remembered that they are part of the plan, among other things like uniform, symbols etc., to imbue comradeship and patriotism while in an unfavourable situation (guys don't do NS volunteerily). eric confirmed that by saying his fondest memories were in OCS.
such is the education i love.

2) i realized i actually do have aspirations for my future vocation. that came a little as a surprise to me. not that i've been wafting all this while, but .. it's hard to put words to it.
anyways, here it is .. my aspiration as a pharmacist is to be able to play a significant part in devising the optimal/most advantageous/basically, the best medication profile for the patients. i acknowledge counselling is another important responsibility, but in concordance with this would make my education worth its while. and for this reason, arrm(doctor)+bell(nurse)+i(pharmacist) would want to go to africa (or some underdeveloped area) where we can truly translate what we have to what we can. one thing that dawned on me when bell came back from acheh was that where there is genuine need, all that red-tape bureaucratic crap can be tossed out the window.

one of them preachy posts, huh. but welcome to my world.